so maybe 2 months ago I woke up and, half-awake, I saw a huge mukade crawling around on the mcdonalds garbage I'd passed out next to. I did a backflip to the opposite end of the room and hit the light switch. I couldn't see where it had gone and figured it might have been a dream.
Since then, I sometimes am jolted awake by the feeling that there is something in my room with me. Or I'll see movement out of the corner of my eye at night, feel something crawling on my skin, etc. And aside from the odd mosquito (and a tick!), when I slap at my skin to kill the intruder, there's usually nothing there but my juice.
Last night I woke up, looked at the wall in front of me, and saw a spider. Like fucking Australian probably, it was not a common house spider. So I bolted up, ran into the kitchen for the pickle jar I'd polished off the night before, back in my room- it's gone. Where did it go?
You'd think if there were really enormous bugs in my room, they'd at least do me the solid of eating all the mosquitos that keep attacking me in my sleep. Or respect me enough to bite me themselves instead of just being spectators. Why am I being ignored like this? I hate not being the centre of attention. This is like. . . psychological warfare.
On the other hand, if they are actually there, what's making me wake up at random hours to notice? Could it be one of them actually did have a nibble, imbuing me with spidey senses?
Am I hallucinating bugs all of a sudden? Does this mean anything in particular? Can an experienced dream reader please weigh in? i.e. does this somehow mean i have deep-seated anxieties about death and dying alone, and my psyche is trying to get me to give my ex a call? OR, are there actually big insects lurking in the backs of my cabinets and under my fridge, waiting until I'm asleep to crawl all over my exposed flesh (because it's flippin hot #mushiatsui, so obvi I sleep naked)?
I'm moving out soon and getting rid of lots of stuff I don't need, so I guess if they're here, they won't have anywhere else to hide before long.
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